Don't think...

...don't think, or You'll drown again.

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Food: blueberry cake & some chocolate-waffel candybar

Music: A Perfect Circle

Drink: natural applecider

Mood: drunk & tired & numb & crashing

Book: Dan Simmons "Hyperion" &

Laurell K. Hamilton "Anita Blake: Vampire Hunter 3 - Circus of the Damned"

*

Being an unemployee, in a way it has been good to and for meh.

At first I tried not to analyse things

and problems in meh and with meh,

but now... I have done it even not noticeing,

it has become one of meh,

like it is natural.

I begin to understand myself more.

I begin to understand my own wantings & needs.

*

I used to be in love.

I used to be dumped.

I used to be broken & angry.

I used to be desperate & out of mah head.

I used to be single & looking.

I used to be single & looking...

Now I outlined myself from the flesh market

&

became single & not looking.

Before I even start to look & search

another meaningless & unnecessary relationship

with another mutherfucking asshole,

I need to accept my own self.

Being constantly on the top of the argument mountain

don't do the things easier for meh.

In any possible way!.

*

Rocka Chase

Bitter and emotionless.

xxx