Tuesday, July 13, 2010

When everything is alright and you still feel it...

Here I am, my stomach is full and listening to a song about New York. Life is funny ya know, rather interesting with its turns and twists. And being in big city makes you breatheless with its own quiet streets and noisy streets, and with all these people, shirtless or not, cheering for the Netherland, while watching it in your homepub. And still, Spain won and I knew it, I knew it long days before. I told to people, in silence, never out loud, because they don't believe me, instead of this they twist and turn and flee when you appear, knowing more about the "future", though it is nothing but a flow of existence. 

Everey time it is harder, when you try to get through the obvious. I am longing to get out of this small town, this small county, this small country, this small land and go outside, go into the world, go to See what the world offers. The dream needs to be chased and being taken into myself, it needs and craves to become Real, and it will, no matter what Mother will say, no matter what They will say. I will not give up, since it is the "future" of mine.

I will have long hair and then let my friend make dreads out of them.
I will have tunnels in my ear and other piercings.
I will have almost whole skin of mine on this sexy body tattood.
I will go away, saying goodbye and send postcards from San Paolo and London, Paris and New York.
I will press through my dreams and become Real.
I will and I will not back down!.

I love my life, but I will love it even more, when I get free again.